Battles, Pt. 2

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There were still so many, and I was greatly outnumbered. I see everyone else around me, blood-streaked, in many parts, wounded.

But the snarls and the heavy steps and the gritted teeth gave their courage away.

I, on the other hand, was exhausted. I can hardly look up after striking one when another comes barreling in. Honestly, when can I have some air?

A sword plunged through my side; I had little sense to see the damage. All I knew is, there was a roar, a sickening crunch of armor, a sharp pain, and I was falling, falling backward…

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Why I Do Ministry, 1

P_20160507_182012_1…to see families like this celebrating their bonds centered around Christ.

It’s a huge blessing to see people being made happy of what you have, with your friends, worked hard on and truly bless them on that level. It makes the work worth it.

That being said, I’m proud to be a member of this little family in my local church.

 

*taken from our most recent set-up for Mother’s Day weekend. Do visit us!

Pages.

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41.

She fell asleep forgetting that she wanted to go through until the very last page. She mistakenly skips to 47, before realizing she got it wrong. Now, sixty minutes before she had to leave, she snuggled in a corner of the bed, refusing to go into whatever it is that will make her go into motion.

She groaned. She just wanted to be at rest so bad.

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Rebuilding.

Nehemiah 4:6-14

6 So we rebuilt the wall till all of it reached half its height, for the people worked with all their heart.

7 But when Sanballat, Tobiah, the Arabs, the Ammonites and the people of Ashdod heard that the repairs to Jerusalem’s walls had gone ahead and that the gaps were being closed, they were very angry. 8 They all plotted together to come and fight against Jerusalem and stir up trouble against it. 9 But we prayed to our God and posted a guard day and night to meet this threat.

10 Meanwhile, the people in Judah said, “The strength of the laborers is giving out, and there is so much rubble that we cannot rebuild the wall.”

11 Also our enemies said, “Before they know it or see us, we will be right there among them and will kill them and put an end to the work.”

12 Then the Jews who lived near them came and told us ten times over, “Wherever you turn, they will attack us.”

13 Therefore I stationed some of the people behind the lowest points of the wall at the exposed places, posting them by families, with their swords, spears and bows. 14 After I looked things over, I stood up and said to the nobles, the officials and the rest of the people, “Don’t be afraid of them. Remember the Lord, who is great and awesome, and fight for your families, your sons and your daughters, your wives and your homes.”

Today I felt God scolding me a little as I prayed for the country. How much heart have I ever put into considering service on a perspective of blessing the nation? I don’t have even half the patriotism my parents (and sisters) displayed as they stood along thousands of others during the EDSA Revolution. I admit, perhaps working in a government agency has even strengthened my disgust for politics and the skewed culture. I admit, I’ve been numbed to passivity because “it has always been this way”, how things hold up only for a while but we still compare ourselves to other mations and fall short. But today I was reminded of how God deeply loves my country and the people in it, how He has blessed our nation and preserved us thus far. Could He have done it without love? I prayed today and it’s as if He was saying, “Don’t stop.” Don’t stop having the faith that He can change things, no matter the opposition. Don’t stop loving my countrymen that I won’t serve them to the best of my ability. Don’t stop loving the nation to not give a damn where we’ll pick ourselves up in the future. It is God’s heart for us to love the ones He loves. And though it’s far from perfect, God’s heart hasn’t changed for the country; don’t stop building and investing in the nation’s future.

I long to see the nation walking in the light of God’s truth, leaning on God’s favor, trusting in God’s provision and guidance for advancement and success. I long to see our nation with people living their lives as the head and not the tail; a nation who leads and changes culture according to God’s will and God’s word, and not according to the times. I long to see our nation worshipping the one true God, and working as one for the good of everyone and that love unto God driving our love for our nation.

Maybe, malayo pa. But God says, “Don’t stop.”

What is this Love

매일그대와 수많은 감정들을 나눠주고 배워가며
싸우고 울고 안아주고 — 내게 말해줘 이게 사랑이라면.

Sharing and learning countless emotions everyday with you
Fighting, crying and hugging — Tell me, if this is love.

It’s an excuse to post a Kpop song. No, it’s an excuse to post anything related to love. I’m kidding. I still don’t follow EXO very much. But I love this song.

Two are better than one,
    because they have a good return for their labor:
If either of them falls down,
    one can help the other up.
But pity anyone who falls
    and has no one to help them up.
Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm.
    But how can one keep warm alone?
Though one may be overpowered,
    two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

Ecclesiastes 4:9-12

This love isn’t just by the world’s standards; God IS love and He KNOWS love as He IS that love. I once read this quoted somewhere, a theologian named William Girao tells us the misconception:

“God is love,” the apostle John tells us. Everything that God is, love is. The converse, however, is not true. It is inaccurate to say that everything love is, God is. Love by whose definition? Love by whose experience? Love as modeled by whom? This, in fact, is the idolatry of our generation. We have deified ‘love’.

I thoroughly believe that God wants people to find all the answers to their heart’s aching in Him. But I also thoroughly believe that He means for us also to stand side by side with someone else, be it a better half, a friend, a family, constantly walking with each other encouragingly towards Him. And not just for a season. But for a long time, constantly, towards Him. Sure, we were conditioned to think love is the butterflies and the uncontrollable smiles, and beyond all the niceties lie also the pain and the decisions — but by any human definition, we can’t box it entirely.

But love by the definition or experience or standard of anyone except by the perfection of God is imperfect love, not genuine love. And anything imperfect is not of God.

The third strand; in a love that honors God — it is so much more than a heart beating and emotions rising and falling.

— song: EXO-K’s What is Love — My niece would be so proud